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2020 | Let's give it another try

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*I wrote this post before life changed but my sentiments still hold true.
I was so excited when I got into the online business. It was a whole new world for me. I saw endless possibilities. I even longed to work in the digital space full-time, either for myself or for an already established brand. I had big dreams.
But a few years ago, I started second-guessing myself, my posts, the relevance of my blog. I was going through a difficult time, struggling with my mental health and events that were going on in my life. No matter how much I wanted to, I couldn't get myself to dedicate as much attention as I wanted to my blog. I started posting less and less. I had changed and I needed to find myself again so that I could find the right content to share.

Another reason I struggled with this space was because of fear. I was afraid that sharing my struggles would come back to bite me, that my words would be used against me. But I also knew that there are many people who might be going through the same journey I am who need to know that they are not alone. 
I was tempted to stop but at the bottom of my heart, I knew that if I did, it would haunt me for years to come. Besides, I love doing this. I love all the opportunities the digital world presents. I love the inclusiveness. I love that there's space for everybody.
2019 was my year to push myself out of my comfort zone and I did, in many ways. However, as the new year rolled by, I couldn't truly silence that voice in my head that told me I needed to push myself more professionally.

That's why I am writing this piece. Fear can have a crippling effect on your personal growth, it can keep you from fulfilling the deepest desires of your heart and take you further away from your destiny. I've borne witness to this. But you know what? I'm done hiding. I want to create! I want to challenge myself to try new things. And this year, this decade, even with its ups and downs, is for that; to make every moment count, to go beyond my routines and learn new things.
I have always wanted to explore. However, over the years, I've let it die little by little. I don't want that to be my legacy. I don't want my daughter to grow up and see her mother sad because she didn't accomplish any of the goals she had. I want that when I die, yes I went there, my headstone will read, 'She fought the good fight. She won the race.' I think there's a Bible verse like this, I don't know.

I want to inspire and challenge, that's my new motto, to inspire others and myself, to challenge others and myself.
I hope to take you, my lovely readers on this journey with me.

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